Allyson (Ally) Leard is not an ordinary fitness professional. In addition to coaching CrossFit full-time at the Reebok International Headquarters in Boston, Ally is also a professional competitive CrossFit athlete.
After years of hard physical training and discipline, Ally competed against the most elite CrossFit athletes around the world at the 2017 Reebok CrossFit Games in Madison, WI.
Shortly following the close of the 2017 CrossFit Games (her team placed 5th in the world, by the way), Ally got some great news; she’s pregnant! “What a perfect way to take a step back, relax and take some much-deserved rest,” Ally thought.
Ally looked at the next 9 months as such an exciting time. She daydreamed about being one of those aspirational fit, pregnant ladies on Instagram that are kicking ass in the gym, working out in just a sports bra, strutting their blossoming bellies without a care in the world.
Ally anticipated the joy of eating all of her favorite foods, nourishing her body as well as the one on the way, and embracing the extra “cushion for the pushin’” that’s not only inevitable, but healthy.
Being a CrossFit Games athlete who’s incredibly fit, toned and accustomed to working out in a sports bra and shorts, this should be a piece of cake, right?
When it doesn’t go as planned…
“When I first started seeing changes to my body, I was like, ‘I’m really going to embrace being pregnant and I thought that it was going to be easier than it has been,” said Ally. “I’m a little surprised at myself for feeling bad about my body.”
It turns out accepting your body’s changes is a lot more involved than simply wanting to do it. This goes for pregnant women and non-pregnant women alike.
Despite her moments of insecurity and discomfort, Ally still chooses to work out in a sports bra. This may seem like a fake it ‘til you make it scenario, but forcing yourself to deal with your insecurities is a powerful way to overcome your greatest obstacles.
Brené Brown, a sociology research professor, emphasizes the benefits of leaning into our own discomfort. One of Brown’s major tenants is that shame cannot live in silence. The more we expose ourselves to our biggest hang-ups, the more we’re able to overcome them.
Cue the social media peanut gallery…
Unfortunately, just like choosing to embrace our bodies, becoming resilient to the external pressures we face isn’t easy.
One day after a tough workout, Ally posted on her Instagram story a picture of her in just a sports bra. Ally didn’t think much of it until she was messaged by a stranger with a comment, “Ewww ur gut is gross. Do some situps hun.”
“It just caught me off-guard. I wasn’t expecting a comment like that. I’d never been called ‘fat’ before and I was already struggling with my body’s changes,” said Ally.
I don’t usually rant but I’m feeling sassyðð»So as I go through this transition of being pregnant and allð SUPRISE! My body is changingð¤°ð»HA! And it’s a little mentally tougher than I thought. But like any change I’m trying to embrace it as much as possibleð¤ This message I received obviously hurt my feelings and at first I was mad. But then I started to think how funny the world is…if I have abs I’m too masculine and if I’m pregnant I’m fat. And basically all I wanna say to this person is to go f**k off. But instead I’m going to keep posting videos and photos of myself getting fat because I can’t wait to be EVEN fatter!!! ð¤°ð»ð¤°ð»ð¤°ð»ð¤°ð»ð¤°ð» #pregnantlife #yay #fitmom #fitpregnancy #peoplearecrazy #crossfit #crossfitgames #reebok #reebokwoman #selflove @gbleard @fitpregnancy @reebokwomen @crossfitgames @crossfit @reebokcrossfitone
Courage begets courage
Ally could’ve run away in defeat, deleted the message and pretended it never happened, or posted a fake empowering Instagram photo with a well-thought-out, inspirational caption in an attempt to make everyone think that she’s bulletproof and doesn’t care what others think. As tempting as that might be, those actions don’t help us for the moments we feel weak, alone and hopeless. They don’t solve the problem, they numb it.
Instead, Ally unpacked that shittiness, and shared her raw moment. Although Ally thought this was an act of self-love (which it totally is) it’s also a selfless act of courage. And courage inspires more courage in yourself and in others.
Happy Birthday @denthomas7 ð¾ This lady is one of my favorites! We laugh a lot, argue & cry (maybe thatâs just me), laugh again some more, suffer together (or workout slow ð¤°ð»), and fold towels together ð Whatever it is, I love it all! Have the best day ever! #D #friends&family #crossfit #reebok #birthdaygirl #awwwcanton #reebokcrossfitone #bestpictureiveevertaken
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So, ladies, pregnant or not, let’s get real about body positivity. It’s not easy. The relationship we have with our bodies is one that needs to be attended to every day. There will be days when you look in the mirror and think “Hot damn, I’m a fox!” and there will be days when we poke and prod at parts of ourselves that we aren’t happy with. Both of those days are equally important and both of those days should be celebrated for exactly what they are.